9 Months

         When you find out you are pregnant, you expect that in 9 months or so (just about 40 weeks) you will bring home your little bundle of joy.  You follow every online board you can detailing each week what you should be feeling and the size of your little one. You research the best car seat, high chair, toys etc. You prepare the room, you prepare your other children and you prepare for life to be changed.

        Well July 9^th makes officially 9 months active with our home study.  We have tried to prepare Quintin and Kai as much as we can for this journey, but they don’t understand. They know that when their sister arrives they will be big brothers. Kai has told me before he turned 4 “when I am 4, Zoie will be here”. Cute as that is, he is now 4 and he asks often about his sister.  A home study is only current for 1 year, we were hoping to have our daughter before having to renew our home study. That doesn’t look like it will happen.  So in October we will fill out all the paperwork again, get the doctor to sign the papers again and have a home visit with our social worker again.

       I know in my heart it is all in God’s hands and He has the perfect child for us, and I know in my heart His timing is way better than my timing. But it is hard. We are human of course. I know my God is a God who answers our prayers, whether that be with a Yes, No, or Not now, our family will be complete.

So as we pass the 9 month mark I ask for prayers that instead of worrying about when Zoie will be here, we worry more about showing others the love of Christ through our wait. I pray we become better parents to Q and K and they learn to love Christ and follow him in everything that they do. 

Until Next time friends!

Tarrah with Nick's edits:-)